Fill The Gap, Feed With Love

There’s this thing that my four month old does when he’s hungry.  I call it “The Dive Bomb”.  He starts with a sweet cuddle in the crook of my neck, and nuzzles his little rosebud mouth against my skin.  Within seconds he turns his entire body toward my collarbone, and throws all 15+ pounds of…

How I Learned To Breastfeed

When Ben was five days old, I cradled him in my arms and tried to disappear into the soft fabric of our old recliner.  We had been home from the hospital for 24 hours, and my tiny newborn son was screaming and wiggling as I tried desperately to latch him on to my breast. It…

I Support You

When I was a Formula Mom, I used to pour formula into Medela bottles, so that the other moms at playgroup thought that it was pumped breastmilk. I felt their eyes on me. I felt shame, and embarrassment. I was different. Now I am a Breast-Feeding Mom, and I get funny looks and nasty stares…

Milk Drunk

I breastfed my newborn son in the Target dressing room today.  My tiny boy, the one who lost ounce after ounce in the hospital, is now over ten pounds.  Why?  Because I have nursed him in restaurants, in the front seat of my car, in the recliner, in bed, on the floor, curled up on…

A Second Chance at Breastfeeding

I stood in a tiny dressing room today, and took off my bra. “You’re going to want a nursing bra that leaves some room for growing” the kind woman yelled through the curtain.  “You can assume that your breasts will be at their largest size about two weeks after baby is born”. I could assume…

He’ll Eat When He’s Hungry

Hard-boiled eggs.  “Don’t open it Mommy, I want to eat it whole.”  A cream-cheese sandwich.  Hummus.  Toast with avocado. Are you jealous yet?  Max’s diet sounds pretty healthy for a 3 1/2 year old, doesn’t it?  But in our house, looks are deceiving. Max has created strict rules around eating, and after years of watching…

On Formula, Failure, and Freedom

This post is going to be about formula, which unfortunately, means that I need to start with a disclaimer.   I know that “breast is best”.  I know that breastfeeding isn’t easy, and that there are dozens of resources available to help a struggling mom find her footing in the land of boobs and milk.  I…